Breaking up with porn

My letter to porn

This letter is the end of our relationship. At least the relationship we used to have.

Looking back, I can see that our relationship had some benefits, I can acknowledge that.

You taught me about my body and the thrill of pleasure. At the early age of 10, I could see what beauty looked like fully revealed and accessible. I gained so much wisdom for being so young.

You educated me about different techniques and positions which made me feel like the master. Someone with confidence, with skill, with power.

You were there to numb me where I did not want to encounter my trauma. The pains too deep to behold. You were the one who took them away, you provided me shelter. You provided me a place to hide from the monsters lurking in my mind. No person could do that for me.

You gave me the attention that I always deserved. You provided me anyone at my beck and call, fully undressed and ready to serve any of my needs.

You taught me how to be a man. How to take what is mine and how to demand attention. I deserved every second of it. I truly felt unstoppable at times.

You became my god, I worshipped every time you blessed me with your presence. You intoxicated me with ecstasy.

Then...

I started to realize…

That it was all a lie…All of it!

You turned me into something I never dreamed of becoming…

The monsters in my mind, incarnate.

From a lover, to a slayer.

From a builder, to a destroyer.

From a Christian, to a demon.

All of the trust I placed in you because of the powers you gave me…

All the lies I told to protect you, to defend you…

All of the times I betrayed the ones I loved, just to be with you…

You never loved me.

And you know what…

I never loved you.

You manipulated me.

You embarrassed me.

You desecrated my temple and my connection to my true God.

You transformed me into a liar, a robber, an adulterer.

You pillaged my integrity and raped my innocence.

You took everything from me.

Because of our relationship and your control over my mind…

My marriage ended.

My family separated.

My faith splintered.

My life was nearly taken by my own hand.

But you know what?

I’M HERE.

I’m breaking up with you, but you aren’t breaking up with me. I’m not done with you.

I’m coming for you.

I’m coming for revenge.

I’m coming to pay you back.

I’m coming to win the hearts and minds of others with truth and love.

I’m coming to end your reign.

Your reign over innocence.

Your reign over intimacy.

Your reign over trust.

Your reign over productivity.

Your reign over the true beauty of others and their God-given radiance.

Your reign over love and passion.

Your reign over living in the present and enjoying what is natural, what is real.

You are not a person.

You are not a website.

You are not a business.

You are a mind virus from the chasms of hell.

You are a deceiver.

You are a murderer.

You are a snake, and I’m coming to take your head off.

Your enemy,

PornFreeMillennial

Let’s take the fight back to porn, join me!